i went to sleep..last night/wiTH..the KIND WORDS..OF A good man..echoing IN MY MIND..i was awoken..with..a message of hope..for him..at..2.30 am..and..got out of bed..to write it/..down/where it matters..on the thread

but..post limitations..PREVENTED..the recording..OF/THE Messages from beyond..and this morning..there is no trace left..[thus the message is..it is only imPORTANT..AT THE TIME...YOU CAN CHANGE THINGS].. DWELLING ON..WHAT IFS ..Isnt from you..its a way..they get to you.

o..you lIKE ME/CHRIS AND SUZIE..WE BEGAN..WITH the best..motives
but..as we grew into..our cuties..the duty fell..from serving..OTHER..into servitude...OF CREED.

MY GUIDES/MESSAGE..IN PART WAS BREAKING AWAY..FROM THE REMINDERS..of that which brings..that energy..tHE DEMONs..must feed off/..for good or ill..you have walked your path through hell..JUST BY YOUR SURVIVING..YOU GIVE OTHERS STRENGTH..to go on.

you must know..behind you STAND..THE MIGHTY FORCES..OF THE GOODBLUE..AS MUCH AS THE DARK/BLACK..YOU HAVE..NOT ONLY DONE/but seen dun.

BUT THEIR CLAIM TO..haunt/or Comfort you..are limited..by those wITH HIGHER CLAIM..UPON YOUR/PERSON..[YOU..WHETHER YOU like/it or not..have become part/of the body..of the lawman/SPIRIT/BODY..who are extremely fixated..upon the letter..and colour..of the law..

[WHERE/as.for the rest..of us/..any sin against the law..is small/
for you.MEN/WOMAN..IN BLUE/OR White..much higher obedience..to the good..OF THE COLOURS..IS TO BE EXPECTED..

MY GUIDS..PUT IT IN..A DIFFERENT LIGHT..THIS MORNING
but see..that taking oath..with those..doing the unlawful..yet.bears its burden..[you must bear..the burden..or bare..the burden]..to those burdened..by the misapplication..of the rule..of/law.

[ITS NOT..simply.A MATTER of credit/blame/SHAME..BUT OF BALANCE...IN NO WAY..DO ANY*..GET A BIGGER BURDEN..THAN THEY CAN BARE..SO WE ARE GIVEN..THIS LIFE..to release a bit of steam..that in the end..we are better prepared..to defend..[NOT.RE=Offend]...and..THUS/PRESENT THAT WE ACHIEVED..FOR OTHER..TO BALANCE...THE Imbalanced/debt

ITS NOT GOD..WHO HAUNTS...us/in.OUR DARKNESS
GOD HAS..ALREADY FORGIVEN US..BUT ITS WE..WHO Must forgive ourselves..OUR TRESPASSES..[AS WE FORGAVE those who trespassed against us]

but.by freak oF life/circumstance..there BUT FOR FATE..WERE WE
THat..we did for the least/..as much as the moST..WE DID TO HE.

we prove..we get it/..by doing it better..[GOING/SINNING..NO MORE]
till then..we are bound/in..the darkness..the only way out..is to take*..an other out of the darkness..too..

[bring someone else..also repentant..out with you]

man..is not to be alone..go BE..WITH PEOPLE
VISIT THEM..IN THEIR HELL..HELP SET THEM FREE..THUS FREE YOU YOU.

IT..WAS SAID BETTER..[IN MY DREAMS]
BUT THIS POSTING..IS MY REDEMPTION..AND EDUCATION TOO.

Sorry to hear of your problems, o sung wu. To reach 70 plus, you're one tough son of a bitch. Remember it's not over till the fat lady sings, so kick that black dog in the guts so hard he ends up in her gob, that'll shut her up for quite a while I'd reckon.

Chin up old buddy and think not what you've done or where you've been, but what you can still do and where you can still go. Knocking some sense into the clowns around here is a good start :~)

Hi there HASBEEN...

An old TR7 you reckon ? Mate, I can barely close my hands around the handles of my walking frame, let alone fling around a set of 'Sidies' ! Oh sure I wish I could no doubt, there's something very therapeutic working on an old car, particularly old English cars and bikes. Sure, you're probably thinking, old Sung Wu is a founding subscriber to the hitherto 'youthful excuse factory'? Moreover, he's not got the guts to even give it a try ? There'd be some real sense to that statement !

I've heard of Men's Sheds and the terrific impact they've had on men of all ages and backgrounds. Since my illness, I've tended to shy away from social/vocational activities when those attending I don't know ? *You see HASBEEN, still more excuses*. Our kids are all grown, become successful, and moved on. Our grandkids give us immense joy, but none of them have any knowledge of my intimate relationship with, the 'black mongrel'. As our grandchildren were growing, and paid us numerous visit, that implore me by saying '...go grandpa can we see your gun...'? Of course those simple pleasures have now gone, and grandpa merely sits silently in his chair watching quietly all the eager activity take place around him, without seemingly to take part.

Dear o sung wu,

On September 30, 1859 Abraham Lincon related this in a speech;

“It is said an Eastern monarch once charged his wise men to invent him a sentence, to be ever in view, and which should be true and appropriate in all times and situations. They presented him the words: "And this, too, shall pass away." How much it expresses! How chastening in the hour of pride! How consoling in the depths of affliction!”

I thought this was a biblical expression however it seems its from a Sufi poet named Attar of Nishapur. “Attar records the fable of a powerful king who asks assembled wise men to create a ring that will make him happy when he is sad, and vice versa. After deliberation the sages hand him a simple ring with the words "This too will pass" etched on it, which has the desired effect."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/This_too_shall_pass

Whatever the origin the sentiment has comforted me on more than one occasion.

Interesting to hear you are staring down 75 years of age. I'm a bit off that myself but had always felt this was the age to start experimenting with drugs. I mean the body is pretty well shot and the mind is chocker full of life's experiences so trips of a different kind seem to be on the cards.

I recently had a discussion with a couple of old hippie types who say their relationship with LSD is totally life affirming. Using it in their 20's was not always pleasant in fact on occasion it was terrifying but now they say they are having extraordinarily profound experiences. Just the looks on their faces when they describe how it transports them to places of deep understanding tells me there is something worth exploring here.

From my reading LSD in non-toxic, non-addictive, and shown to be beneficial to metal health.

However it will be quite a few years before I embark on that journey as 75 is the age I have set myself. But what about you, would you ever contemplate kicking the traces in that direction a little?

...Sorry HASBEEN, I hit the wrong button, I'd not checked anything I'd written, therefore there'll be an abundant number of mistakes, for which I apologise ?

Actually, what I was trying to say, you said yourself; your children and grandchildren (and horse), were your life ! I couldn't agree with you more. I too am similarly blessed in this regard. As I look beyond seventy five though, I wonder if there's any point in planning any further ? What does the good book ordain, something to the effect...that men shall live but, 'three score and ten'...? If this edict is correct, then my life's now in deficit ?

I'm at that point now, where I should perhaps dwell on what has past. Rather than, what is there to plan for the future ?

Good on you HASBEEN, for all your sage advice. I appreciate it.

G'day there ONTHEBEACH...

Thank you for your thoughtful comments and insight, and I agree totally with what you've said. Depression, is a disorder that generally can't be seen, like most other illnesses, therefore it's least understood, notwithstanding there are millions of sufferers around the world who are afflicted with it.

Myself, I used to attend weekly group counselling sessions at the VVCS (Vietnam Veterans Counselling Services) and I found this pretty good. Though it was Veteran specific, we all had different worries, different problems, some with family difficulties, some vocationally, but we're all quite different. There was eight of us sitting in a little circle, talking about how the previous week had been for us, and what expectations we had, for the following week ?

Most, found this process pretty good, without the need to see a bunch of Doctors and take tablets. I went along for over eighteen months, and only ceased, because some of the group wanted to talk about the damn war all the time, and that became quite tedious to be honest with you, therefore I gave it away, about two years ago now.

Many thanks ONTHEBEACH, I appreciate your willing 'ear' and your excellent, kindly advice.

OH SANG/QUOTE..<<..Since my illness,>>

this phrase alone..institutes NEGATIVITY

HOW ABOUT..SINCE MY WAKEN CALL?

<<..I've tended to shy-away..from social/vocational..activities
when..I don't know..those/attending>>

this..is shyness..or maybe worse..'INFERIORITY'..COMPLEX
[when what..you HAVE DONE..that..you/feel..YOU did by honour/ sacrifice..To/be..less..

*you who HAVE SERVED..WITH Honor..have the least excuse..to hide?

IS THIS Fair.to anyone/let alone..you./..the one who..would gladly have laid down..their life..for othER?

your younger..than MY MUM..but MUM STILL Works..a casual JOB
PLUS HELPS OUT THE OLD PEOPLE AT THE RETIREMENT HOME..GARDENS..DRIVES AND CARRY'S Stacks and DISPLAYS FULL CARTONS OF BOOZE..[her job/not her passtime]

a few times she got to where you are..but then..looked outside..
[saw..them..younger..than her..dying..in old folks homes..and just keeps going..FOR THEM

she.is so BUSY.SHE DONT JAVE THE TIME..TO THINK
[AND One thing our genes have..is thinking powers

Our grandkids..give HER GREAT JOY
but like you/yours..<<.buT/none of them have..any knowledge of my intimate relationship with, ..the 'black mongrel'.>>

[AS WE/too..HAVE LITTLE KNOWLEDGE..OF EACH OTHERS SECRETS..?]

[but the signs are there..even the grandkids,..will.,know/it..well..and
feed it/too..thus arnt deceived..believe me olD COBBER..they knoW

THEY FIGHT..THE SAME/BEAST..BUT THEY TOO
ARE HIDING IT..FROM YOU..[WHICH ONLY MAKES..THE secretive/PROBLEM WORSE...[how/well has..silence worked..so far?]..keep no secrets.

<<>..Of course..those simple pleasures..have now gone,>>
RUBBISH..[I PRESUME YOUR LICENSED/TAKE EM..TO A GUN CLUB..AND LET EM FIRE OFF A FEW ROUNDS..[INSTANT BONDING..YOUR NOW THE COOL GRAndpop

<<..and grandpa merely sits..silently in his chair..watching quietly all the eager activity..take place around him,..>>o hear/them through/the wall

<<..without seemingly to take part.>>

so next time..your..sitting there..suggest
that we go see..the latest movie..or tell em..of the crazy stuff we post..or just ask them/to hold you..while WE HAVE..A LITTLE WATERSHED MOMENT..AS THE SAlty tears..set free our burdened soul's..

do not be..the ghost..in the corner
im the ghost..behind the wall..but its my CHOICE

WE NEVER HAD..even..WHAT YOU....even/now..HAVE..
[but were fine..with just that..your not..recall age has its privilege..and WE..CAN..GET SO FORGETFUL

[WHICH IS..THE BIG CLUE.]..

CHEERS..LAZARUS..ARISE..
ITS A TIME TO LIVE...in the fast lane..
like there..may not be a tomorrow..[cause there may not be..this maybe as good as mankind can allow it to be.]..Expend..like theres no tomorrow./better to die..trying.

ACCIDENTS HAPPEN...LIFE IS WHAT happend..BETWEEN TRYING/GIVING UP