OUG, I’m having a think about your post. I didn’t see it before my previous reply.

And because you are the only one I’ve ever left a coded message to – one small soul is coming for the weekend and there has been no movement in this case as we await a specialists report. The specialist needs to talk to me but there is a conflict… I hate him.

Weird huh but one word from him caused so much damage to a child I loved a few months ago and now to help another one I have to fake how I feel? I really don’t think I can.

Anyone? That kind of fakery and control and sacrifice/suppression of emotions? See I’m not that nice, I know the right decision but don’t know if I can do it. I am hoping my opinion is not pivotal.

Dave, keep ‘em coming.[smile] I think the barmaids probably give better clues with body language and tone. They can be friendly and flirty without it ever being taken the wrong way or just one person in the pub thinking it is all for their benefit. If all men reacted to me the same way in e-mail maybe I’d figure I was doing something wrong but this was the only one off the chain.

Have the message colours stopped alternating?

piper>>..no movement in this case..as we await a specialists report. The specialist needs to talk to me..>>>its the next step...think of it as the final 'straw'...if he needs to talk to you
dont hesitate
tell him to visit anytime...your duty to the children takes higher ceedance than his needs..but is the next step...this is your only exit point

<<but there is a conflict…I hate him.>>>dont sweat on it...he hates everyone...you hate so few...think of it as karmic inevitability...sort of like birthing a child...follow your protective mothering instinct...

ask questions...dont reply them...he isnt egsamining you..he should be egsaming..WHAT NO ONE ELSE SEEMS TO...he should be egsaming the PROBLEM...he has huge powers...make him/her.. use them

<<Weird huh but one word from him caused so much damage to a child I loved a few months ago and now to help another one I have to fake how I feel? I really don’t think I can.>>>you dont need to fake...dont even try...just be you piper..say it like it is...with firm eye copntact..look into his soul[..via his eyes]..eye contact with a mother..is a wonderouse expression of loves-power

<<I know the right decision but don’t know if I can do it. I am hoping my opinion is not pivotal.>>you opinion matter not in the least...fate chose you...in truthy this very thing is why you chose your life path...its no accident..[god dont allow misstakes]

do as much..or as little as you can bear...your the next step...or call pass...and no one could blame you...histry hasnt fixed this mistake...till this gaping wound is healed nothing else can change...dont give opinion..or explain what/how you do as you do..

but firmly reply..their questions with your own