the last two mornings i have had to log in
somehow..the log in..system..has been..modified..or changed

i know the message says after two hours..we get logged out
but it was never enforced before[my heart skips a beat every time i have some reply..in mind..go to post..then have to dredge..into my left brain..to recall the access coding..then once logged in..have somehow lost my right brain impulse to post.

thing is logging out is what many other sites do
when they ban..you..so every time i see any..log in box..im thinking am i banned..again..or is this a fake page..to obtain..my acces code[all..sorts of mind stuff that rots away the urge to post]

even now my chest is feeling the pain

so log ins..[computers know..other computers]..
the log in..is that other big..brother bothering..that says we dont know you[but i know damm well..they know everyone..online all the time.

so..log in..log on..prefer it gone
[its as silly as them..dumb-cop shows..saying
keep the dude on..the line..as were trying to trace them

they never heard of caller id?

they know us..their job is to watch..us
loging..in to post..is..just so old school
better a message in the posting box..saying we know who you are by your computer..[if your name dont appear..its cause the silly..computer has logged you out..

but we value your cuss-tom..
so please log back in..via this posting name
we will update the...de'tails..if you dont want to use..a name we will..simply print the post under your computers id/details..no sweat

chest pain..still..paining
that rejected feeling..just wears one down
[but i bare it..knowing my rejection pains..are as nothing..compared to..gods.

logged out again

logged out..again
now..forgot where/what i..was intending..to post

im..noting..that topic-responses..follow..in a flury
immediate its posting..but fewer later replies..unless the thread/gains ongoing interest.[its like we said what we wanted to say..

and unless we are specially.,.interested]..simply go away.
rr find it too hard to return

i was im my mailbox..and realized..i..rarely..if ever open..the notifications..cause usually..i got a lot of pages open..so refresh

but i..thought..on the occasion..that the page has closed
the email/link..effective...to get to the page..[and notifications]..but thats about all.

yet emails must be a huge..burden..yet vital

i..lost where the topic was going
but it was something along the line of ..a front page
[on-site..browser]..with all my open threads..open..on it.