MichaelK; whats that your saying?

Palimset, if you had really not understood my previous post,your message has been a perfect illustration to what I was saying.

MiaCat - are you a scientologist?

I have major depression and bpd.
The reason I am not on the pension is perhaps that I am alone in the world.
No-one cares about me to help me.
I suffer in silence and you can't see it because I'd look too healthy to you. I don't drink or take drugs.
I live permanently on the dole and only go outside to shop.
I knew it was becoming harder to go on the pension but I didn't want to live with the label.
Doctors only seem interested in making money and I leave more paranoid than when I came in.
The longest I went to one doctor was four months with no diagnosis. I feel angry all the time.
Now private psychiatrists are impossible to see. My doctor told me not to go to the free clinic.
I just did out of absolute desperation and so far they don't seem too bad.
Anyway, one thing that really annoys me is people who never listen.
If they already know everything we may as well not have bothered.
Also, it's genetic my father and grandmother had it and my childhood was a horrendous nightmare.

Geez Isabella, are you ok? That's really sad.

Feeling like nobody listens is something which has always irked me. This site has been useful in that regard, given that if you want, you can make a reasoned argument and provide evidence, and no moron can interrupt you until you're finished. However, it can become a little all-consuming- actually being acknowledged can be a little addictive- it did for me around the end of last year, and I had to move away from it to focus on what I could achieve in the real world.

Unfortunately, this isn't exactly a help forum for people with mental illness. I found a site which helps people with my problems, and I've found it very cathartic, and it feels like I've connected with a few people, and people listen. I'm sure there are groups which help people with BPD.

And hang in there. You're not the only one who feels alone in the world.

Bulldozer.